I have so many ideas and things I want to do but I never seem to be able to take the time to do them. I am going to start taking time at night and start dedicating a little time to myself. I know I am a mother but I am my own person too. I often forget  to thinkl of myself as an individual. I am going to start doing that.

I need to start taking pictures again. I havent for a long time and I want to start doing it now,

I want to get a gym membership because at least I know that if I have a gym membership that I pay for I will go and work out. I give in to easily to temptation and I love eating junk food. IF I knew how to control my eating I wouldnt be weighing as much as I do. I feel ashamed at not keeping up with my workouts and watching what I am eating.

I am going to go back to watching what I eat and trying to walk on the treadmill at least.

I need to start Nutrisystem because I will get the foods packaged and I dont have to really cook anythign from scratch. I know that if I start eating those foods the weight will come off sooner than it is now. I know that with a change in the way I am eating and doing the excersices I am doing now the 30 pounds that I want to lose will come off. I really need to talk to my hubby about signing up with nutrisystem. Have any of you guys tried it out? How much weight did it help you lose?  I also want to know does the food taste delicious?

I got 5lbs weights to work on my arms and I got 3 different workout dvds. I hope this will really motiviate me to lose the weight. I eventually want to way about 150 but I am going t make realistic goals for right now. I want to lose 30lbs to start with and I will take it from there. My goal is to lose at least 5 lbs per week  but lose it healthy like for right now I am working on portion control. I am also going to work on not eating out. I have a bad habit of eating at a fast food joints and that has got to stop if I am serious about losing weight.

I am going to make time for myself to do a workout. I need t0o hurry up and finish the work I need to do and then I can start on my workout.

I cant stand the heat. It is quite aweful here during the summer. I guess cause we live close to the desert it gets really bad.I plan to buy a pool though so at least we can cool off a bit. I also plan on taking the kids to places with air conditioning such as chuck e cheese and to the movies so they can escape the heat.

We will see what this summer brings. I also wonder if the twins will be walking by then ? Oh boy I am going to be in trouble when those two start walking all over the house. I hope they dont get into too many things. I am going to have to be on gaurd with those two.

You dont want to know what I found next to my phone. Well for those of you who are curious I found some business cards , some old fries and three pens(so thats where they go ). I am investing in some of those seat wedges and especially after finding all that nasty gunk under the seats. If you need some too you should get them soon because for a limited time you get two seat wedges and led car light and slide free  pad for you cellphone for free. Thats right you are getting 60 dollars worth of  items  for only 19.95

I am going to be happy when I can install the seat wedges  and not lose things in between my seats. I think I am going to buy some for my van too. Hubby will be happy cause he is always losing his change and his hands dont fit in between the seats.

Anyone who knows me knows how long I have struggled with my weight. I went from being stick thin as a kid to being  dramatically overweight. I cannot blame others because I did this to me. I am the one who chose to eat unhealthy food and now I am the one who has to make a choice to make it right. I have been looking into diet programs that are going to work for me and as many of you know I dont really like to cook so that  makes it kind of hard finding a diet program.

One of the programs that has caught my eye is the Nutrasystem diet program. One of the major things I like about this program is that they willl deliver the prepackaged food right to my door so that eliminates one of my biggest problems which is cooking. I also like that I get to have desert with their diet program and no you did not read that wrong you really get to have  a desert and again that wins bigtime with me because I have a huge sweet tooth. Another added benefit for me is that  Nutrasystem offers a men’s, women’s, vegetarian, diabetic, and silver plan for those over 60 years old so this basically means that my husband and his mom and dad can join us in the program and lose weight right along with us.

One thing I like is that NutriSystem has been around for over 30 years and to me a diet that has been around for so long lets me know that it works . NutriSystem’s   diet programs consist of  the good  carbs  and are  low in fat. It is based on the Glycemic Index.   I struggle alot with carbs so I am highly interested in how this diet works .

One of the best parts about getting the NutraSystem is that you can order it directly from Tvtopten.com. If you order it and enroll in the Auto delivery service  at the same time you  could save 10% as well as receive the jumpstart kit for free.  The jumpstart kits includes the FlavorFulls, which is a fiber drink that can help suppress hunger, Success Cards to help you out on your diet program Premium Connect which is access to a personalized coaching service.  Thats alot of stuff that you can get for free.
Select the auto-delivery option for two months in a row and you’ll get two weeks for free.  A program like this is what I have been waiting for, I need something that is easy for me to do since I am super busy. I cant wait to be able to fit those nice clothes that I have been saving all these years.

The hubby will be  getting his Master’s degree in May and I need to have some money saved up for his graduation so I am feeling a little of pressure. Not only that but  the Price that we normally pay for our mortgage went up and we are struggling as it is so that got me down. I need to find a way to be able to pay the extra amount that it went up. I am going to have to get some kind of job that will be able to make up the difference.

Last but not least we did our taxes and ended up owing some money but not as bad as I thought we would owe . I am trying my darnest to look at the bright side of things and not get too down or depressed. I have heard the saying “this too shall pass ” and I am hoping that this time of struggle goes by quick and we are able to get on our feet. I didn’t want to discuss our personal and private business with the world but I have noticed that I do feel better when I write down my worries and fears and anything I am feeling. I  have always worried about what others might think about me or my family. Its time I stop worrying about what others might think and live my life the way  I want  too, not the way others want me too.