sorry I havent written hear in ages. Life got so busy and I just didnt have time to sit down and blog like I wanted to. I let myself  go and the little bit of pounds I lost I gained and then some. I have to start back at square one and its difficult let me tell you. I notice that the more weight I gain the less energy I have.

I want to get a gym membership because at least I know that if I have a gym membership that I pay for I will go and work out. I give in to easily to temptation and I love eating junk food. IF I knew how to control my eating I wouldnt be weighing as much as I do. I feel ashamed at not keeping up with my workouts and watching what I am eating.

I am going to go back to watching what I eat and trying to walk on the treadmill at least.

I have slowly been trying to lose weight. I am walking and using a treadmil and although I want to be dropping lots and lots of pounds the weight is not falling off like I want it too. I know alot of it has to do with the way I eat. I need to get on Nutrisystem. I struggle with portion control. I need to be shown how much I need to be eating. I hate cooking so I go out and buy alot of fast food. I know how bad it is for me but I continue to do it.

I need to start Nutrisystem because I will get the foods packaged and I dont have to really cook anythign from scratch. I know that if I start eating those foods the weight will come off sooner than it is now. I know that with a change in the way I am eating and doing the excersices I am doing now the 30 pounds that I want to lose will come off. I really need to talk to my hubby about signing up with nutrisystem. Have any of you guys tried it out? How much weight did it help you lose?  I also want to know does the food taste delicious?

I am thinking of getting this tattoo or part of it on my back tell me what you guys think about it. I am going through my stage where I want to get a tattoo or something different than the normal things that I do . Here is a picture of  it.

today I weigh 216.4 so that means I have gone 2lbs thats a good way to start. I am going to keep eating what I have been eating  and I am going to try to add excersice today. I got so distracted cleaning the house yestrday that I didnt work out. I will start working out though. I will blog more when I get back from taking the kids to school.

I need to be held accountable for my weight issues so I am going to list how much I weigh and I need to see how big I have gotten so maybe that will motivate me to lose the weight. I am as of today 218 lbs. Yes thats right I myself cannot believe that I have let myself gain that much weight. I started the day before yesterday walking but didnt walk yesterday because it started raining. Its raining today but I plan to workout at home.

I got 5lbs weights to work on my arms and I got 3 different workout dvds. I hope this will really motiviate me to lose the weight. I eventually want to way about 150 but I am going t make realistic goals for right now. I want to lose 30lbs to start with and I will take it from there. My goal is to lose at least 5 lbs per week  but lose it healthy like for right now I am working on portion control. I am also going to work on not eating out. I have a bad habit of eating at a fast food joints and that has got to stop if I am serious about losing weight.

I am going to make time for myself to do a workout. I need t0o hurry up and finish the work I need to do and then I can start on my workout.

I have been missing in action from this blog.  I totally forgot I had it since I have been so busy with the kids. Today we are just going to hang out and maybe later on I think the hubby aqnd I are going to go out since its our wedding anniversary today. The kids are almost done with their spring break . I cant believe how fast time is flying by. Pretty soon it will be summer and we will have to be dealing with the horrendous heat.

I cant stand the heat. It is quite aweful here during the summer. I guess cause we live close to the desert it gets really bad.I plan to buy a pool though so at least we can cool off a bit. I also plan on taking the kids to places with air conditioning such as chuck e cheese and to the movies so they can escape the heat.

We will see what this summer brings. I also wonder if the twins will be walking by then ? Oh boy I am going to be in trouble when those two start walking all over the house. I hope they dont get into too many things. I am going to have to be on gaurd with those two.

I am so tired of losing things in between my seats. I was going crazy looking for my cellphone and guess where it was. I was ready to report my cellphone missing when I called it and found it in between the side of the driver’s seat. It must have fell when I was driving to the store. I  was thinking to myself why dont they have some sort of cover to block the wedges betweeen the car seats and guess what they do have something. Its some sort of seat wedge made to prevent exactly what happend to me.

You dont want to know what I found next to my phone. Well for those of you who are curious I found some business cards , some old fries and three pens(so thats where they go ). I am investing in some of those seat wedges and especially after finding all that nasty gunk under the seats. If you need some too you should get them soon because for a limited time you get two seat wedges and led car light and slide free  pad for you cellphone for free. Thats right you are getting 60 dollars worth of  items  for only 19.95

I am going to be happy when I can install the seat wedges  and not lose things in between my seats. I think I am going to buy some for my van too. Hubby will be happy cause he is always losing his change and his hands dont fit in between the seats.

Anyone who knows me knows how long I have struggled with my weight. I went from being stick thin as a kid to being  dramatically overweight. I cannot blame others because I did this to me. I am the one who chose to eat unhealthy food and now I am the one who has to make a choice to make it right. I have been looking into diet programs that are going to work for me and as many of you know I dont really like to cook so that  makes it kind of hard finding a diet program.

One of the programs that has caught my eye is the Nutrasystem diet program. One of the major things I like about this program is that they willl deliver the prepackaged food right to my door so that eliminates one of my biggest problems which is cooking. I also like that I get to have desert with their diet program and no you did not read that wrong you really get to have  a desert and again that wins bigtime with me because I have a huge sweet tooth. Another added benefit for me is that  Nutrasystem offers a men’s, women’s, vegetarian, diabetic, and silver plan for those over 60 years old so this basically means that my husband and his mom and dad can join us in the program and lose weight right along with us.

One thing I like is that NutriSystem has been around for over 30 years and to me a diet that has been around for so long lets me know that it works . NutriSystem’s   diet programs consist of  the good  carbs  and are  low in fat. It is based on the Glycemic Index.   I struggle alot with carbs so I am highly interested in how this diet works .

One of the best parts about getting the NutraSystem is that you can order it directly from Tvtopten.com. If you order it and enroll in the Auto delivery service  at the same time you  could save 10% as well as receive the jumpstart kit for free.  The jumpstart kits includes the FlavorFulls, which is a fiber drink that can help suppress hunger, Success Cards to help you out on your diet program Premium Connect which is access to a personalized coaching service.  Thats alot of stuff that you can get for free.
Select the auto-delivery option for two months in a row and you’ll get two weeks for free.  A program like this is what I have been waiting for, I need something that is easy for me to do since I am super busy. I cant wait to be able to fit those nice clothes that I have been saving all these years.

Where have I been you say . I have been around just really busy thats all. I went through some serious drama and I got a bit down on myself  and felt like my whole world was caving in on me and I had no way of pulling myself up. I prayed and prayed and wished for the best and little by little things are starting to get better. We are still financially strapped but I am trying my best to save money and use coupons whenever I can.

The hubby will be  getting his Master’s degree in May and I need to have some money saved up for his graduation so I am feeling a little of pressure. Not only that but  the Price that we normally pay for our mortgage went up and we are struggling as it is so that got me down. I need to find a way to be able to pay the extra amount that it went up. I am going to have to get some kind of job that will be able to make up the difference.

Last but not least we did our taxes and ended up owing some money but not as bad as I thought we would owe . I am trying my darnest to look at the bright side of things and not get too down or depressed. I have heard the saying “this too shall pass ” and I am hoping that this time of struggle goes by quick and we are able to get on our feet. I didn’t want to discuss our personal and private business with the world but I have noticed that I do feel better when I write down my worries and fears and anything I am feeling. I  have always worried about what others might think about me or my family. Its time I stop worrying about what others might think and live my life the way  I want  too, not the way others want me too.

I feel so frazzled. I hate having to wonder wether we will be getting taxes or oweing taxes. I really hope that we get some kind of taxdes back but I highly doubt it as hubby didnt take care of things he should have taken care of last year. I also hate that I am owed some money and people dont pay back. If I borrow money I make sure that we pay it back as soon as we can and we always make payment arrangements.

I jsut dont get the logic in people. How can you owe someone money and tell that same someone that you owe money to what  stuff you have been buying and all the places you have been going to but when they ask for the money  that they owe you  they tell you uugh I dont have any moeny to give you. They has jsut told you all the things they were doing but when it came down to paying that is when all the excuses came about.

I just needed to vent really quick and now that I am done I am going to go and relax if I can.